Back to the real world

This week I went back to work and Esme went to "daycare". "Daycare" is Grandma Barb and Grandpa Dan. :) She has stayed there so much that I wasn't worried about her at all. But I still cried like the baby in the family the first morning. Aaron normally gets up at 4:30 am (yes I think this is crazy too) and takes the dogs for a walk before getting ready for work. Tuesday morning I woke up with him and was crying. Ugly crying. Sobbing. It wasn't pretty. Not that I was worried about her at all, because I wasn't. But I went from spending all day every day with her to now only getting to spend a few hours every day with her. From being in charge of her naps and her feedings to just hearing about them. It makes me very sad. But unfortunately we haven't won the lottery, so staying home isn't an option at the moment.

I don't really think Esme liked being woken up to be put in her car seat which can be one of her least favorite places in the world.


The good news is that she's such a happy baby that pretty much as soon as she's actually awake, she's smiling up a storm.


On my second day at work, I got a nice surprise. And proof that Esme is every bit advanced as we believe she is. She sent me flowers! AND she wrote a haiku! How talented is that?!?


It's quite a change for us this week. I actually do like being back at work and visiting with patients and coworkers. It's nice to be back in the real world. But I already really miss sitting on the patio with Esme, Kirsten and the boys. I would very much love to keep doing little adventures with Esme and getting to be the first to see all of her stepping stones. We kind of were in a little cocoon the last 12 weeks. I didn't make a huge effort to get out in the real world because I knew our time was limited and I just wanted to hold on to it. So it seems like a pretty drastic change. That probably was not the smartest on my part. I promise if I win the lottery to do a better job. So if anyone wins the lottery and wants to share...........